Reflections for the new year Pt 12 of ?

[chaos_silk]

Teen!me was so infuriated when Kingdom Hearts was announced. Disney characters? In my Final Fantasy game? ugh. (Ironically, adult me had the opposite reaction when discovering that the FF crew had been dropped entirely out of III. Like really.)

That said, once I got my hands on the game I loved it so much. As an adult, I can honestly say I prefer action rpgs over traditional turn based rpgs. As a teen, I was confused, especially when I played it on proud mode 100% it and was still confused (I always play normal, now I turn down the difficulty so I can get through faster).

Anyone who says Sora and Riku do not have a thing going on, need to have their eyes checked. They're really not even pretending anymore. I wasn't a fan of Leon/Cloud because my poor shipper heart still goes for Seph/Cloud in KH. There's a lot of Riku/Sora content out there, but I personally think there was a lot of good stuff posted '05/'06. My favorite at the time was a complete 180 by Uzumaki-sama. Unfortunately, a lot of things happened and I can't read Kingdom Hearts fic without remembering them, so I've had to stay out of the fandom for a long time.

I had to find the entry in which I discussed this all, but I didn't make a mention at all about how creepy he was over certain characters and certain people that fit his type. Like, I didn't feel comfortable even thinking about Kingdom Hearts for years after he disappeared from my life. That's how bad it made me feel about it.

Which is sad, because as a teen, I read everything there was to read. I loved Kingdom Hearts with a passion, I spent so many hours perfecting everything, 100%ing everything I could. It should be a fond and nostalgic memory for me, but it's been tainted by shame and horror.

No fic recs, obviously.