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Life Update!
Jul. 20th, 2022 07:42 amLast time I posted I was 4 months pregnant and exhausted due to being short-staffed/overworked. Now my baby girl is exactly 1 week old today (born 7/13/22, 26 hours after being induced, almost 12 hours after my water was manually broken, and 2 hours after they decided to let me actually push) and I'm even more exhausted than I was two weeks ago, but in much better physical condition despite the stitches. I can bend over, I can sleep in whatever position I want, I can pick up more than 10 lbs, it's great!
I can't wait to introduce her to so many things. She's brand spanking new and everything is an experience for her. I am so excited to be able to introduce her to the world.
But I'm also terrified because of the changes going through the world, and terrified by what hasn't changed since I was also a cute little baby.
I've never outwardly spoken about it, but I survived multiple abduction attempts as a kid. Every single scenario they warn you about? -Hey little girl, want some candy? I've got a puppy in my van :D, want to see?, even the one with someone asking for directions and hey, can you take us there?- All of them happened to me as a kid. Someone tried to pick up my sister at our mailbox and my mom got a ticket for it because she was on the phone and not outside (no, seriously).
Stranger abductions are rare, but not if you're an adorable blonde haired, blue-eyed girl. People get gross, and I only see that now that I am older. My little girl inherited my hair and eyes. At least it looks like, but considering he was blonde as a child and I am blonde (sandy, but still blonde), her hair will likely stay. Every member of our direct lineage is blue-eyed, so the only real question is if she gets my green-gray-yellow w/central heterochromia or his boring blue.
It obviously worries me, but it worries me less than it did my mother (75% of the attempts I escaped from happened on military bases). I live in a community that I know just about everyone and the threat to my child is offset by the fact that if it happens, there is a larger amount of people who would fuck them up just for looking at her the wrong way.
But still, with everything that has gone wrong in the world, I am so worried about her future.
I can't wait to introduce her to so many things. She's brand spanking new and everything is an experience for her. I am so excited to be able to introduce her to the world.
But I'm also terrified because of the changes going through the world, and terrified by what hasn't changed since I was also a cute little baby.
I've never outwardly spoken about it, but I survived multiple abduction attempts as a kid. Every single scenario they warn you about? -Hey little girl, want some candy? I've got a puppy in my van :D, want to see?, even the one with someone asking for directions and hey, can you take us there?- All of them happened to me as a kid. Someone tried to pick up my sister at our mailbox and my mom got a ticket for it because she was on the phone and not outside (no, seriously).
Stranger abductions are rare, but not if you're an adorable blonde haired, blue-eyed girl. People get gross, and I only see that now that I am older. My little girl inherited my hair and eyes. At least it looks like, but considering he was blonde as a child and I am blonde (sandy, but still blonde), her hair will likely stay. Every member of our direct lineage is blue-eyed, so the only real question is if she gets my green-gray-yellow w/central heterochromia or his boring blue.
It obviously worries me, but it worries me less than it did my mother (75% of the attempts I escaped from happened on military bases). I live in a community that I know just about everyone and the threat to my child is offset by the fact that if it happens, there is a larger amount of people who would fuck them up just for looking at her the wrong way.
But still, with everything that has gone wrong in the world, I am so worried about her future.
